I love Logan

hola : ) I thought that i would update this thing since i have some time, something that will be coveted in the coming weeks because finals are quickly approching. Dammit. Not much is new, work has eaten away at my sole and I am a slave to cholera. I dont know if i could work in a lab all summer, its just doesnt sound like fun, and i want to enter my senior year a sane person. School is dragging, but i enjoy my classes somewhat. Its just so nice outside that id much rather be laying out in the sun working on my tan ( im embarressed to go home looking so white) Oh well. Speaking of home, within a week, I will no longer be able to call San Diego home. On the 30th my parents are packing up and moving to Yucipa. Yes, far away from all that i know and love. I will never see the inside of my house again ( tear ) So when I do come in, i will be flying into the Ontairo airport, unable to see where we land because of the smog. Dont get me wrong, I love the new house, its huge and its near Big Bear and yeah, its my moms dream come true, but there really is no place like your hometown,which according to me, will always be San Diego. I will be heading into SoCal with my bf on the 14th of June and plan on going to Xfest, so any of you homefolk who are going, hit me up. Then im leaving ( in my car!!) on the 22. A short trip but hopefully one jam packed with fun. Plus i get to show off SD to Logan, which im very excited about. I just went up to his hometown of McKinleyville (Humboldt county) this last weekend, for his sisters graduation from Humboldt State. My baby is a small town boy, but me being a city girl didnt get in the way of realizing that he lived in paradise. The ocean, lush vegetation and that cute small town feel equalled a wonderful getaway, and he has lived there all his life, makes you kinda wonder why your in the suburbs. But anyways, I want everyone to clear the week of the 14th to the 22nd, cause im rolling into town and I know you have all been waiting for this moment for a very long time. I cant wait. Kisses for everyone. See ya soon

"...do you think of me, like I dream of you..."

Well Hello everyone. I decided to start off my blog in a sophisticated manner seeing as how I am now 21 yrs old. Yes, the moment I have been waiting for since the first time i was banned from seeing a concert because of my age, has finally come....and gone. My birthday was wonderful....and it wasnt just the weather that made it that way. My wonderful Logan started it off by taking me to Safeway to buy my first alcohol at midnight...and didnt make fun of the wine coolers that I chose. Of course, they didnt even card me at the register, but whatever. Then my late night birthday snack was Jack n the Box...yummm. So after I had that and my buzz ( and my achy arms) wore off, I went to sleep. I woke up to the phone ringing...getting birthday wishes from Jen and my parents...and of course a live performance from Logan. I went to work..unwillingly...and ran my gel...and even my experiment knew it was my birthday and gave me a present...the damn thing worked!! So I came back to find Logan cleaning my room ( again...I have been nicknamed Hurrican Selena) and we went to Zannoto's for my all time favorite sandwhich. Yumm, pepper jack. I had a nice visit with my buddy Jackie, who printed me our a really cool picture of Wonder Women and we got to catch up. I then recived a call from Trung and then from Skip and my buddy Francine. I then began to beautify myself and slipped into the dress that my baby bought me for my birthday. I was then wisked off to Chilli's to meet up with some of my bestest friends and I had a blast. I started off with a pina colada and then had a oatmeal cookie, a shot that smelled like one but definately didnt taste like one....thanks Mike. Off to Jackie and Salenas place for cake and presents and more pictures. I then went home and finished off a wonderful day cuddling with my bf. Now I know all of you are probably bored, but I had to let all of you who werent around know, so that it was almost like you were there...which i really wish you were. Now, a warning to all.....stay away from Long Island Ice teas made at the Cheesecake Factory. A post birthday lunch may have had my boyfriend laughing at my drunken impression of a liver, but it left me feeling like I got hit by a truck. Yuck. And for the person who commented on my choice of birthday alcohol....I have it on good authority that it is better to have to buy wine coolers because I dont have to be drunk to enjoy the person that Im with...and that I am a lady not a slut..Haha ( Im sure you know who you are...and who told me this) Well I love all of you, wish you were here to celebrate, but you are always here in spirit. Thank you everyone who made that day as great at is was. I love all of you.

"...skyrockets in flight...afternoon delight.."

Ha!!! Im writing again....and its only one day from the last time I wrote! But,I have very exciting news!! My long lost dream of going to the Coachella Music and Arts Festival has finally come true. Im taking off Friday and arriving in Big Bear to spend non-concert time at my parents cabin,and then Sunday, i will spend 12 hours immersed in music and art, basking in the wonderfulness of my boyfriend and friends. Im soooo exctied, i just had to write it in my blog and brag. Yeah music! Yeah Logan! Ok, ill stop, everyone have a great week, I sure will!!

...my baby, my baby, and I would do anything for her.." : )

Yeah, Yeah, i know its been over a month since i last wrote in this thing, but I have been quite busy. For one, althought my class load is much easier, its a lot more reading then Im used to.But I got Fridays off, so its all about a 3 day weekend. Then of course there is work...blah. And althought it already seems to have gotten out without me telling anyone, I got me a man. Yes, the what seemed to be impossible has finally happened.... and I couldnt be happier.( Bizzaro... I love you) Haha. Other then that, nothing too exciting has been going on. Im planning my 21st birthday party, so if anyone feels the urge to see me, that would be the day to come and visit ( May 9th) Well I have to get ready for class.Sorry ive neglected your need to know what going on in my life. Hope all is well.

"....gimme some lovin early in the morning..."

Yes, i have fallen into that dreaded cycle of never updating my blog. I never thought I would become that type of person, seeing as how I love to do anything that will distract me from studying. But with sleep sparce, study time even worse,and my desire to hang out with my residents stronger then any motivation I posses, updating my blog just doenst seem to fit into my schedual. So what have I been up to lately? Well to tell you the truth, i really havent been up to anything too exciting these past few weeks. Although my social activities usually consist of staying up way too late and eating crakers and cheese with my residents, i am perfectly content with my lack of outside interaction. Oh,I finally went to a concert last night, my first since the summer. Peter, you rock. And so does Death Cab For Cutie and The Velvet Teens!! Very cool. I dont know about most people but when i go to concerts, i have the urge to just lay on the floor with my eyes close and just feel the bass. Odd if you ask me, but not something new in regards to my crazyness.Anyways, finals week is coming up, and unfortunatly i am suffering from spring quarter syndrom a quater too early.I am suppse to be studying for 20L right now, but instead I am taking advatage of the Res Life computer to satisfy my desire to procrastinate. Im sorry that some of my buds are already in SD, anxiously awaiting my arrival only to be devistated by the fact that I wont be coming in till they are on there way back to their respective colleges.Oh well, I miss everyone to death, we can make it a few more weeks. I will see some of you soon, and some of you only in my dreams, the summer isnt too far away. Good Luck!!



"..I lay inside myself for hours.."

Valentines Day has come and gone, and unlike my past years of glutuneous choclate eating and angry girl music, I went out on the town with some friends. Granted that half of us were sick, our going out consisted of going to a movie, (25th hour) where looking good just doesnt matter. Before that, I chilled with some of my residents, something that always puts me in a good mood. There is nothing like playing a game of darts where the prize is to make out with me : ) Although there were couples that needed to be gunned down, I was happy with how my Valentines day turned out. I got a call from my buddy Robert,which, just listening to his voice is enough to make me happy, which is why his messages are always left on my answering machine. And of course my All Time Valintine, my Daddy, called : ) Oh, and nothing beats the Valentine blues like checking out I Hate Valentine's Day websites with Jim in the Res Life office. As for the rest of my insane life, I just got through RA intervies and am in the process of applying for an internship with the Health Center. Add that to an insane class schedual, and my unforgiving research, to which i found out that I suck at making my PCR solutions ( for you science challenced, the basic idea is that its a machine that makes lots of DNA from a little amount). So hopefully my last attempt will come out right. So I have a four day weekend, and althougth I didnt do much today, its not over yet. Its all about tomorrow thought, Jen is coming to pick me up, and the two of us are nothing but trouble ( HaHa) I think the only places that should be scared of us are those that serve food! So everone have a great weekend. I Love You!

"...I wanna make love to ya baby..." -Darren,student/songwriter

The past couple weeks have been hell. This quarter has been the worst of my college experiance and the worst part is that things are not looking to get any better. I guess getting an ass kicking is what I need. Ive always been a stubborn mule and sometimes i just need a little push. But to be so busy I can barely breath is not exactly what I call a dream come true. My research demands so much time that every free minute Im at my bench, even on weekends. School is definately getting put on the backburner because of this, which means i need to take extra time to catch up. The RA thing is actually the only thing that keeps me sane, coming out of my prison (aka my room) and talking to them is a treat. Unfortunately the other side of the hall doesnt feel the same way. To them I am the "Dark Lord" and the "Smoking Nazi" This doesnt bother me, im not exactly thrilled about people who voluntarilly are trying to kill themselves and the people around them by smoking whereever they want. Im actually am kinda flattered that they would take the time to defame my posters and make up names for me since they really dont have any clue who I am nor do they try. The fact that I annoy them to the point of slander makes me feel like im getting my job done. Common curtousey and respect is all I ask of these kids and my side has this and we live in harmony(sort of) and considering that I let most of them get away with murder, i dont think its too much of a request. Oh well, I have few enemies and if the only reason they dont care for me is because Im trying to save some lungs then let them, either way, Im am enjoying clean air. : ) As for my social life, it has its ups an downs. This past weekend was an up weekend even thought I was busy. I went Salsa dancing, which I am horrible at, but it was good clean fun and the best part was the absence of creepy men. I also finally went to The Mystery Spot and found out I was a contortionist by peeing in the smallest stall I have ever seen in my life. Then there was the ultra cool Superbowl party I threw for my kids. Actually Sunday was the best day of the week. I woke up at 5:30am, jumped in a borrowed car and made my way to the beach. One of the best things in life is to sit alone on the beach with your eyes closed. Now thats heaven. Well its time to go back to hell, I have 2 lab reports due, a presentation of my research and a midterm this week, fun. Well I hope all is well with everyone, TTYL


"...we try to keep our eye on the big picture, but the picture keeps on getting bigger.."

Many people have wondered why im crazy. Well I finally have the answer. After fighting with teleslug, i went to my academic preceptor to complain. Well she looked up my file and saw my last name. She wondered where it came from and I proudly said it was italian. Of course she thought I was latina, to which i replied that I was. She smiled and said that i must have lots of passion. Ha!! there it is, its in my blood. Now, i always knew i was a very passionate person and I love it. It makes everything that much more important, horrible and wonderful. I have been known as obsessive, a drama queen, a sap and just down right crazy and althought im a little of everything, i think its great and wouldnt trade my crazyness with anyone. Another topic of interest was a scibble i found on a makeshift wall, the ones that are popping up everywhere due to construction. It said " practice safe delusions." Im torn between what to think about this because I guess its up to interpretation. Now, at first i thought that it wouldnt be much of a delusion if it was a safe one, arent all delusions a little crazy. But then i thought about how it would suck if you believed in something and then relized you were totally screwy, and it ruined your life. Thats not safe. But then is it talking about something important like war solving our problems or are they just talking about something petty like believing the reason someone ran into a glass door was because he was awestruck by your beauty instead of him just being a clutz. Im second the former for this happened the other night to me. I guess its just something that has me thinking. Its kinda sad that something you pass by makes an impression when you should be thinking about how your gonna fail physics if you dont become a library rat or how you should group your mutants so that they make sense to other people and not just you. I think i need a vacation.... already. Well hope all is well. love you.

".....I could change my life to better suit your mood..."

Hola!!
I am finally able to waste some time and update my blog. I have been away for a while so I have much to say, so those who are weary at heart, this is gonna be a jam packed blog, so be warned. Anyways, SD was really nice, I miss my boyfriends already : ) Its really funny that when im in Santa Cruz, i hang out with more girls and when im in SD, i just hang around boys. Now if i could only just bring them together, all would be perfect, except I wouldnt get all the attention : ). Happy New Years!! I know its late, but whatever. My resolutions are still in the draft proceess, but i do have a few that I know Im keeping. 1) Finish my thesis. a very bold request but if i do it then im getting published, so there is my motivation. 2) learn how to play an instrument. I have been bothering myself forever about this, and for the music fien that I am, it almost seems ridiculous that i cant even read some notes. Now of course there are the givin resolutions such as loose wieght and do better in school, but since those are something that rarely gets done, i wont even bother adding them to my list and just hope that my sub conciouse wakes up and I do them automatically. School sucks already. The stupid school dropped me from my classes because they are idiots and I had to crash all of my classes. Now, I have never had to crash a class, my compulsiveness keeps me in check, so when its my time to enroll, I am at my computer at whatever day and time it is, down to the last second, its amazing. So being the control freak that I am , i almost had a coronary when i found out that I wasnt enrolled in anything. But somehow I was able to do the impossible and I am in all my original classes. But because of all of this I have been running around like a mad person, trying to get my schedual straight, buying books, waiting in lines, getting my RA stuff done, trying to find time to even want to analyze my data, and then just try to get myself in the groove again. Although I am compleatly exhausted, I still feel that I havent gotten a damn thing done.Dont you hate that. Another thing I hate is Physics. I have been to one class and already i loath it as much as math. Yuck. And of course it has a lab, which is 3 hrs, then you add that to the 4 hr, twice a week bio lab and the fact that I work in a lab. Thats a lot of freaking time to spend in a really depressing room. Hmm. Oh and can you believe Im considering a TA'ing job. HaHa. Im know, im crazy. Speaking of crazy, one of my residents just told me that she thinks she seen a ghost last night. Now, I am deathly afriad of ghost, or spirits, or whatever makes you feel like your being watched( no remarks form the peanut gallery, thank you very much). Here goes my supernatural speal again. I believe her, and even though her roomate thinks its ridicoulous, she cannot deny the fact that both of thier alarm clocks were switched to pm, when they remember putting them on am. Now, I know Merrill is haunted, its legend around here, but my building has always been free from anything like that, so when I heard this, i almost choked on my salad. I plan on not sleeping very well tonight, being afraid of wierd things and then having a wild imagination is not a good mix. Well I think this is more then most people can get throught so Ill stop. My mind is not an easy thing to get through, so whoever has finished reading this is super hard core and I know you love me. Well to all of my home soul mates. I miss you terribly. I had so much fun and hated to leave you all. To Steve and Phil, you guys are true blue, some things never change, Trung, you are my bio hero, if only I had you around more often, i guess i have some major visiting to do. Yaniv, aka: Baggins, I hope my punching didnt cause any more blood leakage, hope you get better and I will make a point to come see you, I love you. Tim, i hope you enjoyed the tamales, they are made with endless love, just for you. Mi amigas, well i need a bf just so i can be part of the gang, i love the little time we did see each other, you guys are the best. Robert, ha, enjoy Captain, i sewed my own heart into him, take care of yourself, you are part of me, and i need all my parts working right if im even going to make it throught this life. Skip, hmm, I dont even think I need to say anything, you probably already know what Im thinking. I love all of you, and the memories make Santa Cruz just that more bareable, Kisses for you. Good luck in school, and for all you Griffins, think of us while your on your long vacations : ) Adios!!
( oh my goodness this is a long ass blog!)


"..all is full of love..."