This week has really made me think, in a diffferent way of course, which is why Im choosing to write about it. Unlike the other weeks of my internship, this week has nothing to do with lab. Instead we are learning how to write about ourselves. For us science majors, writing about ourselves happens only twice. Once, when we apply for college and second when we apply for graduate school/med school. Which is why most of us were trembling with nervouseness at the thought of this week. But it has been quite an experiance for me so far and its only been the second day. Normally my bragging skills are bordering pathetic. Of course I know Im a good person and I am at least moderately intelligent, but try to sell yourself to someone who has read the same thing 5 million times before reading it in your statement. Graduate school/med school has got me shaking in my boots. It was said that 35,000 students applied for med school last year and only 16,000 got in. Yikes. Makes you do some deep meditation about what the hell your gonna do to make yourself look amazing.After doing some quick writes and participating in conversation, I think I am seriously ready to kick some personal statement butt. I have a rough draft due at the end of the week, and although I plan to make it a damn good statement, I have yet to start on it, and on 2 other lab write ups for that matter. Wow, my motivation dies quick. But I have made a resolution and plan on doing some serious studying these next two years. You might think Im crazy for thinking about the next 2 years, but like I said I am very "passionate" and anything that keeps my attention for more then 5 minutes is dwelled upon until it cant be processed another way, EVER. Ahh the mind of Selena. I think if someone tried to study my brain, I would wear them out. My neurons and axons are at constant motion, not only to keep my heart beating but to figure out what the hell all this Stuff means. "Stuff" meaning life. I have changed my mind about things so many times, made so many lists, and scheduals, I dont even know which ones are the most recent, which then produces a new list a new decision or a new schedual. Maybe if I put half the energy I did thinking about random stuff, into my education, I might not be as stressed out as I am. Baby steps people, its all about baby steps. As for my life outside my brain, the weather has finally cleared up and since I have no lab I have taken advatage of it and am getting some use out of my sandles and summer clothes. I have two more weeks left and am looking forward for the very brief visit home (Grignard misses me) Well I will stop my rambiling (believe me, I could write more) Everyone stay safe, Happy Summer, Love you

"....there goes the fear.."