As a junior( omg) now in college, I realize that junior year in college is reminding me of my junior year in high school. It was the crackdown year, the hardest year, the one that counted. Well Im now taking upper division in almost all of my classes, which is a dream come true considering the hell that intro classes have put me through. And I will begin working on my thesis in october and checking out med/grad schools, and practicing for the GRE and MCAT. Wow. Not to mention that I am in charge of 32 freshmen, and a core member of a club for the health center, plus a 20 yr old just trying to have some fun in the mists of all this that will effect the rest of my life. Pretty heavy huh. I am still debating on my 5th year or year off, there are many pros and cons, and well, as usually I am totally "passionate" about it all. Not only am I freaking out about my graduation date, I have been debating on what I want to do with my degree. For as long as I can remember, Ive wanted to be a doctor. But now research has its claws in me, and my research has me particullary excited and confused. For those of you who dont know, I am doing research on the bacteria that caused cholera. Its isnt dangerous as long as I dont eat it, so if you come to visit me in lab, make sure you wash your hands. I have always been really interested in infectious diseases, and dreamed of working for the CDC, particularly working in different countries and doing field research. The problem with science, and I guess with a college education in general is that you are exposed to so many different things that your dreams and goals change from year to year. My professor was right, I am more confused then when I came to SC. Enough about that, i will think about it tomorrow ( good ol' Scarlett) . Anyways as of yet, my kids are pretty good. The only problems I have encountered are quiet hours violations and a girl who has a mattress that makes her sick. At this moment Im knocking on wood because I dont know how much longer these kids are gonna act like angles. Lets just hope that they all really are angles and this is no act. HaHa. You may be wondering how I can possible come up with all this stuff to say, I am the reigning blabber mouth amongst my cirlce of freinds and I dont know if I should take that as a compliment or as an insult. I think my ability to ramble on FOREVER, makes me more personable which is why I have more friends then my ex- roomies, althought I dont know why, because I think they are all pretty cool. Anyways, my explanation for my unatural talent is due to the fact that my brain is a workaholic. Althought the brain is a workaholic naturally, i think some of the areas of my brain are working overtime, making all these thoughts, ideas and just plain jumble come out through my hands and onto the keyboard. Unfortunately you all( at least those of you who made it this far) most likely have to deal with me on a daily basis, which, has lead some people to become cliniclly insane, but I mean well, I love all of you and just want to give of myself all that I can. Well good luck in school all you, Ill shut up now, not because I want to but because my animals are beckoning me to close the window because like crazy Santa Cruz weather, it has gone from 80 degrees to 40. I love you

"....Ill give a little bit, Ill give a little bit of my life for you..."

Hello Everyone!!!
Im back and have lots to say! I have just gone through two weeks of some very interesting training. As some of you may know, I am an RA this year. The first week was rather chill, more just getting to know each other (the other RA's). The next week was much harsher and we were out and about from 9 am to 9 pm, and afterwords scrambled to muster up creative juices to make door decks,which ended up using all my paint, but came out ( in my opinion) kinda cool. I used to think that 2 weeks was a pretty short time. But in the two weeks Ive been here, i have learned and seen more then I have in the 2 years that Ive been here. Rather interesting stuff at that. So when I thought i would just be learing about policy and how to handle my kids, I learned a lot about myself and other people in a group. This has been the second time Ive been in the situation were I am put into a group and spend every waking hour with them. And this group is much different from my internship group, and in a way I think they are different in a better way. I could go into a full fledged essay on this subject, but i will save it for my journal. Anyways, I am enjoying my single, an advantage to my RAing, and have it fully crammed with so much stuff I still find myself looking at my walls with interest. I have almost covered every inch of my walls, an accomplishment in my eyes. My hall has now reached full occupency and so I am know longer creeped out when I make my way to the bathroom. My residents seem pretty cool, I of course have my potential trouble makers, but their 18 yr old boys, so I guess its just somehting I should expect. My training was frist put into action when I was awaken at 8:30 am the other day to help one of my male students put his earing in, which he had difficulty with because it had closed up in the back. Super RA to the rescue!!!! Well school will start on wed. so I am making sure that I enjoy the recently empty days, which has involved walking along West Cliff and eathing mexican food(my favorite pastime) Ahhh. Well Ill shut up. Have a good day, Love ya

"...just a day, just an ordinary day..."