NatalieDee

So today I find out about Obama's stance on late term abortion and what he thinks are good enough reasons for it. Now, Obama is starting to piss me off. I know he can't please everyone, and Im ok with that, but when men start talking about what they think validates an abortion, i get a little nutty. Especially when its to pander to the pro-lifers, who don't give a shit about life once that baby is born to a mother who is either too poor, young, abused, scared or all of the above.

You know how you reduce abortion? EDUCATION and access to REPRODUCTIVE HEALTH CARE. Yup, all that abstinence training is a bunch of bull shit. You can't have our teens watching/listening oversexed media and then think they'll wait till marriage before getting down. Does nobody in Washington remember how they felt at 16?! And for the rest of us, we all know our lives change at the drop of a hat, no matter how much we prepare and plan. Why do we have to keep trying to win those voters when they'll never accept anything but making abortion illegal?

There is no way Ill vote for McCain, but that Obama magnet I have on my car is starting to bother me.


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Whew!!
So I have internet, but now I just dont have any time. I am coming up on my second week of being an RA at Caltech and Im exhausted. Its non stop entertaining and although I enjoy my residents and the activities, I really miss doing absolutely nothing. In the past couple days Ive spent the day at the beach in Santa Monica, watched fireworks in Pasadena, been to Hollywood and Universal Studios Citywalk. Im burnt crispy and my feet hurt. Today is the Getty. To top it all off, im studying for my CSET on the 19th. Ugh.

Being at Caltech has been pretty amazing, never in my wildest dreams did I ever think Id be living on this campus. Just being in close proximity to great science research makes me giddy. The people I work with have become great friends and we spent last night eating ridiculously amazing scones ( on of my bosses is going to school to be a baker) and laughing so much my stomach hurt. Im tired but blissfully happy.


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I had to link to this blog entry because I think it kicks ass. I am often thought of as an angry, irrational and hysterical person because of my political views and that usually shuts me up because Im tired of fighting with assholes. Basically it means I need to find some new people to hang out with. Anyways, woot woot!

I decided to dedicate this post to the code words typically attributed to feminists. Of course you cannot point out social injustice without being angry, irrational, and hysterical. All logical people naturally exist as automatons, going through their days parroting the status quo. Only an unbalanced person would even begin to think that the system we live under could possibly be unfair. What do you mean all men operate with gender privilege? In fact even pointing out that calling a feminist angry, irrational, and hysterical is sexist, is enough to further entrench the views of some.

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Holy Crap!

I was so dedicated to blogging that I never thought almost 2 months would go by without posting. Thanks to Peter, I have decided to squeeze in at least an update.

Having a job and no internet made it a little tricky to post. By the time I made it through LA traffic after work to the library, I was exhausted and had barely enough mental energy to check my email. Then I started school again, which means reading the news and my beloved blogs is almost nonexistent. So, what kept me alive when I had nothing to do, is now a guilty pleasure. Even now, I feel I should be doing some hw instead of this.

So, Im way behind in the news and this irritates me. I read maybe a few eye catching articles from the NY Times and then I copy and past some others to a Word document that I hope to get to later in the day. It very rarely happens. Now instead of being depressed because of all the bad news, Im depressed that I dont have the time to read all the bad news.

Things I hate:
buying baby stuff
going "green"- its turned into a fad
"green" commercials
where is Heroes?!
traffic
LA it just too big
straightening my hair
not having time to read

Things I love
Countdown with Keith Olbermann (sp?)
museums
my new bangs
living in LA
H&M
NY Times
Pasadena Central library
high school kids
my Ipod shuffel- thanks Jen!
LA Weekly
talking to Peter

ok, ill try to keep this updated at least every 2 weeks!

1) So, while waiting to cross the street, a truck drove by and the man in the passenger seat yelled out “hey!” So I turned to figure out what he wanted, and the fucker started blowing me kisses. To make matters worse, the truck had a Hillary for President sticker on it. Hypocrite.

2) Today is Earth Day and while I’m all for environmentalism, I’m tired of the “green” bullshit. TV commercials by Clorox and Chevron talk about their “green” products or how they are moving towards a more “green” business. Yeah fucking right. If the gas companies hadn’t hired such ruthless lobbyist to keep America dependent on oil, we most likely would not be in the predicament we’re in ( I just paid $3.83/gal for gas the other day and yes, I felt super guilty). Our scientists and engineers would have long ago thought up cleaner, cheaper and less invasive energy sources. “Green” has now become a marketing ploy to BUY MORE STUFF WE DON’T NEED.

3) On Thursday I have to teach a lesson in front of a class, a principal and the school director. It’s, my second interview for a full time teaching position at a charter school and I am terrified. At the moment, I still have yet to hear what I need to teach and how long it should be. I have major planning, studying and practicing to do and so far have less then 2 days to do it. I’m trying to not get so stressed about it, but I really want this position. What ultimately sold me was that there is tons of open space and the director told me that if wanted, I could turn some of it into a garden. Holy Shit, a dream come true. Wish me luck.

4) Here are two op-ed articles I found that I just could not resist posting. In fact, I think they go hand in hand.

Clueless in America

We don’t hear a great deal about education in the presidential campaign. It’s much too serious a topic to compete with such fun stuff as Hillary tossing back a shot of whiskey, or Barack rolling a gutter ball.

The nation’s future may depend on how well we educate the current and future generations, but (like the renovation of the nation’s infrastructure, or a serious search for better sources of energy) that can wait. At the moment, no one seems to have the will to engage any of the most serious challenges facing the U.S.

An American kid drops out of high school every 26 seconds. That’s more than a million every year, a sign of big trouble for these largely clueless youngsters in an era in which a college education is crucial to maintaining a middle-class quality of life — and for the country as a whole in a world that is becoming more hotly competitive every day.

Still with stupid?

With political discourse reduced to screaming contests and actual news eclipsed by exclusive and shocking footage of celebrities without makeup, we've become not only impatient with but downright opposed to the kinds of ideas that can't be reduced to a line on a screen crawl or a two-sentence blog entry.

What's more, a lot of people who harbor an intolerance for complexity see it not as a character flaw but a cognitive virtue. That's because they've fallen into the trap of believing that complicated ideas ("complicated" now constituting anything that requires reading, watching or listening to in its entirety) are the purview of the "elite."

I find it very difficult to post when Im in the library. I don’t really know why. I guess maybe because I don’t want anyone to see what Im writing, or since I can only sit so long on that hard wood chair, Id rather spend my time reading. So, Ive decided to write my post at home, using Word, and then when I go to the library, ill paste it onto my blog. Lame? Maybe, then again, I may post more this way.

1) 1) Last week I went to go hear a lecture given by Stephen Hawkings. It started at 8 pm, but since seating was based on first come, first serve, I got there at 5. At that time there was already a huge line. I guess when you’re a famous scientist talking at CalTech, one should assume there will be a lot of geeks around. Anyways, even after waiting 3 hrs in line, I barely made the cut off to be in the auditorium he was speaking in. Everyone after, at least another 500 more, was sent to another place, and watch him on a screen. The lecture kicked ass. It felt so good to be there. My happy place is a college campus. Then to be around so many people interested in science. And to top it off, since CalTech is a prestigious school, there were lots of cute (SMART) guys with accents : ) I just wish I understood more about cosmology, a lot of it was hard for my brain to process, but it was still pretty amazing. I have a new crush : )

2) 2) While subbing last week I suffered a bout of depression. It was at a high school, and for the most part it was easy (middle school kids are a handful), but I just couldn’t get past how undervalued I was. I was reading an article in National Geographic about biomimetrics (they were taking a test), I had just seen Stephen Hawkings the night before, had a degree in Molecular Biology and day after day, I have to babysit kids that could give a rats ass about their education and love to just be a pain in the ass. I realized why it is so hard to recruit science and math teachers. We work our asses off and for the most part the kids HATE science, HATE school, and HATE taking responsibility for their own actions ( every time I catch some kid doing something, he/she would blame someone eles). They never have paper or pens, but have ipods and cellphones. And in one instance, when they find my pen case, they steal my favorite Sharpie. I know its hard because I don’t know these kids, that the classes I sub for are not mine and that they may have a boring/bad teacher. I have good days and bad days, and things may get better when I get my own class, and I am teaching in East LA so it was expected that these kids would test me, but I still worry.

3) 3) Funny subbing story: I was getting frustrated because of all the trash on the floor. I don’t know about middle school kids, but when they leave a class room, there is trash everywhere. For students who say they never have any paper, they find it somewhere and turn it into airplanes and paper balls. ( You should see my backpack at the end of the day, its full of stuff I confiscate!) Anyways, I walked to a particularly messy area and said “You guys need to pick up all this shi…” I caught myself before I finished, but the kids new exactly what I ment. I thought they were going to jump all over me for it, but the reaction I got was interesting.

Students: You cussed Ms.!! (that’s what they call me)
Me: Almost, I caught myself (huge grin on my face )
Students: You cussed! You’re cool Ms.!!

They immediately started to pick up the trash, after several failed attempts earlier! Maybe because I was talking on their level or maybe it showed that I was human. Too bad I can't use that method more often.

So, ideally Id be updating this blog often, but we dont live in ideal world (evidence seen in previous blogs) I have been struggling to get a routine going, and since I dont have internet at my grandma's making time to go to the library before 9pm is a little difficult. Finally figure out that i would just do a lot of cut and pasting, that way I can read at home and not spend 4 hrs ( timed parking) at the library (which I can do very easily). Point being, be patient with me, I hope to have everything figured out soon. Im well, work is good, not only just because Im working but because Im getting a lot of experience. I have A LOT to learn

One Minute News Vacation

This is so me : )